Panini Sunday and My Little Breakdown

The only good things about this Sunday were these sandwiches, and the amazing cloudy spring weather.

The sandwiches are nothing special. Grilled cheese and chicken, basically. But they work well as comfort food. And yes, I need comfort.

My life is spinning out of control and I'm doing nothing. I feel as if I'm stuck in a rut and I just want to be done with things but there is no end in sight. Or at least, no end in sight until after a few very, very, VERY tough months.

Our FYP report is due by the end of April. It has to be about 20,000 words. We have to interview 10 leaders, with 3 sub-ordinates each, and write a case study on each leader. We have, to date, interviewed exactly ONE leader, and his three subordinates. The rest, not only have we not interviewed, but we're still begging for appointments. We don't have a single case study done.

We are having our mid-term exams now days. They go on till this Tuesday. We want to travel to Lahore, for the Lahore interviews, on the coming weekend [8th April], because the weekend after that [16th] is NASCON.

I changed "Cheerful" to "Energetic" later

I'm event head for Little Artists, which is an art-camp/art competition for kids, designed to give a softer side to NASCON.  When I signed up for the position, I just did not think it would be so difficult to juggle this along with everything else! I can't get enough time to call meetings and form teams and delegate tasks and I swear I'm trying really hard. There is absolutely no one to take up the slack for me either.

This is probably not all that big, but what with having five courses, one of which is Inferential Statistics [which I SUCK at], and wanting to jack up my CGPA in this semester, the pressure is crazy. What is worse is that it's not the kind of pressure which is motivating me to work harder. I'm all burnt out. I'm not doing much work. I feel ineffectual and numb and useless.

I leave home for school at 7 am, and get back home around eight pm most days. Once there, I just want to SLEEP. I'm not getting anything done. And I'm just so frightened of the crash that is just around the corner if I don't get my act together.

Argh.



*sigh*