Monday, July 21, 2014

Lessons [Part Three]

I have an ongoing list of things that I have learned in life thus far.
Lessons
Lessons - 2

Here's more:

70. People are very, very similar. And that's awesome.
71. People are very, very different. And that's awesome.
72. You don't need to know how to swim to be able to snorkel.
73. Life jackets are extremely effective.
74. I am very small. My life is very small. The world is very, very big, and extends way beyond my existential crisis.
75. American food is not at all bland.
76. To get a job in a government office, being grumpy and borderline mean is a global requirement. (e.g. NADRA in Pk or the RMV/DMV office in the US)
77. Indians love biryani and associate it with Pakistan.
78. There is more to see than can ever be seen, more to do than can ever be done. - Lion King
79. Mexican food is freakin' amazing.
80. Some people will not like you. Even if you try really, really hard.
81. Canada has a horrible visa website.
82. There are a huge number of poor people in the US. There are a huge number of beggars in the US. Here, they're called the 'Homeless'.
83. Latin American culture is extremely similar to South Asian Culture. There are also definite overlaps with Korean culture.
84. When they say this is your 'Last chance for 50% off!', they're lying. There are sales every. single. day.
85. Dim sum is delicious.
86. A lot of people whom you thought were your friends, cannot stand you once you attain some form of success.
87. The western world has no idea what a 'love marriage' is. That's what every marriage is supposed to be.
88. Drunk people are a little scary.
89. When you go to the emergency room, it is not like Grey's Anatomy/ER/Scrubs/House at all. Waiting 3-6 hours is actually considered normal, unless you come in an ambulance. In the emergency room..
90. Most Americans can eat spicy food pretty easily.
91. Cakes will still fail.
92. Biryani also fails. Often.
93. Your true friends are the ones who will eat your biryani happily even when it fails. And praise the taste. Because the taste is what matters.
94. Living alone is really scary, and it changes you irrevocably.
95. Subways are the best ever. You can make new friends there every day.
96. When people question you about your country, you realize how hard it is to answer. Because answering for your whole country is a massive generalization, and not at all true. And you realize that this is how it is for other countries too, and so a judgement passed by anyone on the basis of their nationality, religion, or any 'mass' factor will always remain a lie.
97. Losing weight is extremely hard.
98. Losing people is extremely easy.
99. A successful marriage is not one which does not end in divorce.
100. The art of cooking is overrated.
101. Clubbing is way less fun than I thought it would be. Huge disappointment.
102. Highschool never ends.
103. Being non-judgmental is extremely tricky business.
104. There is a definite lack of empathy in the world now. The value of human life is negligible.
105. Marriage, in general, is a sucky concept.
106. Aunties are fun.
107. Once you start travelling, you don't have a single 'home' any more. You will leave pieces of your heart in every single street you pass through, and you'll miss it forever.
108. The handsomest men will be found accompanying their kids at parks. I'm convinced this has to do with natural selection.
109. When in doubt, eggs.
110. You are responsible for your own happiness.
111. Cleaning never gets easy.
112. Visa application/all sorts of official, document related stuff, is a huge headache and always will be.
113. To get a good job, you need connections, and this is a global phenomenon.
114. Travelling is amazing. Airplanes suck.
115. There is love in the most unexpected places. It makes up for the people who will never like you.

It's all a matter of perspective.









Tuesday, February 25, 2014

All over the place

That seems to be my motto when it comes to blogging. I have no idea why but I keep flitting from one blog to the other with no concern for my silent, ghostly, pretend readers. I'm sorry about that. I love all of my blogs equally and I can't bear to neglect any, though this one seems to be the most neglected.

Right now, at this precise moment in time, I am extremely content with life. I am alone in a strange land, but I am also free. I have so much to look forward to, but my present is beautiful too. I am extremely blessed. I feel so happy that I am afraid to share it for fear of jinxing it, or incurring the envy of others. It's difficult to not be paranoid about it. You know how, when you hit rock bottom, the only place to go is up? When you feel like you're soaring is when you most fear falling. That's what I feel now days.

But I'm not letting this stop me from being grateful for what I have in this phase of my life. I'm putting it down in words so I can always look back at this. You know I have a propensity to be dramatic every time I get the blues. Thankfully it never lasts, but through these posts I hope I shall always remember the beautiful times that I've lived.

I saw Walt Disney World. I explored Universal, and saw Harry Potter World. I had butter beer for God's sake. I rode on every single ride including all the Disney Princess ones. I experienced crazy water slides for the first time in my life. I traveled in a Red Mustang convertible with the top down across 51 bridges on the ocean. I went snorkeling, rode a jet ski, a banana boat, kayaked and para-sailed. I para sailed over the Atlantic ocean. I swam and floated in the Atlantic Ocean. I don't even know how to swim! I spent whole days just lying on the beach in Miami, reading. I walked for miles and miles and went where ever my heart dictated. I had ice cream every single day. I talked to strangers and smiled at random people on the bus who helped find our destination. I figured out the public transport system in every city I traveled to. I took a bus alone across Florida, and then again from New Jersey to Boston. I sang a horrible song on karaoke at a party on New Years eve. And this was just winter break.

This is what it's been like, when it's been good. There has also been a lot of heart burn and stress due to finance, accounting, operations, economics, etc. You get the drift. Lots of exams, presentations, assignments and crazy amounts of reading. 12 hour days and 12 hour exams. Then coming back home and figuring out what to eat. Grocery runs, getting my SSN and completing tax documents. It's hectic and it's crazy and it's all very grown up.

But it all ties in together to make the whole worth all the work.


Key West, Dec' 2013

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Weird.

2013 has been AMAZING to me so far. I started to write this post without first going to my actual blog page, and when I did, I saw the two pity-party posts from June. And I CAN'T REMEMBER WHY I WROTE THEM! Can you believe that? I didn't remember writing them at all! Weird.

But anyway, I'm obviously over that spurt of depression, thankyouverymuch. And all I can see is how utterly awesome 2013 has been! Just goes to show how, heh.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

...

Utterly alone. That's the way I feel inside. Even while my mind tells me this isn't true. I have family and friends, a fiance who loves me, a lot of people I can talk to. But somehow it feels as if I can't get through to anyone. I went out with friends today because I know that is this actually is depression I have to make an effort to get out of it by doing things that would normally make me happy. I baked a pavlova, regardless of the 50 degree Celsius heat, and then I went to dinner with friends. But all the time I sat there I felt as if we were on different planes. There was just no connection. I talk to my fiance everyday, and it's the same with him. It feels as if they can't hear me. This makes me angry, because I start feeling as if they don't care enough to try and find out, or make it better. Because it feels as if they aren't trying to understand. There is nothing wrong, I KNOW that. But I'm not okay, and I know that too.

Now that I have it all written down it sounds so melodramatic, something a teenager would say. I pride myself on generally being a happy and content person, even with my penchant of worrying too much. So this is kind of a disappointment. Lets hope this stupid phase ends soon.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Why.

We know how I only write when I'm upset, despite my efforts to the contrary. Well, after absolutely ages, I'm seriously upset. And what is more depressing is that I have no one. absolutely NO person, to talk to.

This is depressing because otherwise, I have a ton of friends. I have a huge circle of peers, and lots of people who will "like" my photos and comment on my online activities. I also have a large number of "real" life friends. But now days I feel disconnected from everyone. Isn't that grand? We place so much importance on these connections, seeking validation all the time. But for now, I feel as if I can't talk to anyone, because I don't know if they will understand. I don't know what to say to them. I don't know why I'm feeling the way I am. I have no clue why I'm depressed.

My brain keeps reminding itself of all the reasons I should NOT be depressed. Almost two months ago I got engaged to an amazing guy I'm totally in love with. I've gotten a prestigious scholarship award and got admitted to the university of my choice, a university ranked #1 in the world for the last 20 years, in the degree I'm going for. Two years, all expense paid, in the US, and coming back with an awesome degree. I have it all going for me, and believe me, I'm thankful. Very, very thankful.

So WHY am I feeling depressed. I don't feel like meeting anyone, or conversing, or cooking or baking, or even washing my face. I want to run away. I want to curl up somewhere, and hide. And I just don't know why.




25-02-14: Of course I was depressed. I was all set to leave for a whole new world, leaving everything I knew behind. My family, friends, the Boy, everything would be so far away. It would've been weirder if I hadn't felt the way I was feeling! Aaah, hindsight is always fun. 

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

You and me

'Cause it's you and me...


Hold on.




What are you staring at?

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